Well, had been long since i update my blog. Nothing much actually, still waiting for my NS letter. What i can say is that i went through quite alot, from CMPB first checkup till now.
I discovered that i am suffering from some sort of disorder. I knew it all along that i am "abnormal" due to some circumstances but i just don't know how to put it in words or sentence, it's just too ridiculous to some, thus i can only avoid and hide.
Yes, i got no black and white that i am suffering from this kind of disorder but still, i know that something is not right with me physically, mentally and emotionally.
If you all wish to know what i am suffering from, it's written in red below:
Agoraphobia is an anxiety disorder, often precipitated by the fear of having a panick attack in a setting from which there is no easy means of escape. As a result, sufferers of agoraphobia may avoid public and/or unfamiliar places. In severe cases, the sufferer may become confined to his or her home, experiencing difficulty traveling from this "safe place."